It has taken me years to “come out of the closet”. I know this term usually refers to sexual orientation, but I find that it really can cover all kinds of fears. In my case, the fear of letting you know who I really am.
A closet is a place of safety. It is dark and comfortable. You can feel the walls around you, your own private stronghold, a fortress. It is really terrifying to open the closet door and step across the threshold into the light especially if you have been hiding ‘forever’. I have been hiding myself in the closet for many years. I was afraid to open the door and show up as me. To be honest, I have only made it across the room and now I am facing the door to the world.
What put me in that closet? Wow! I am not sure it was just one thing. Grieving the death of many family members, included my husband; feeling unworthy of being successful and loved; being unhappy for most of my life; unable to really see me; not appreciating or loving myself. All of these things put me there. But it was FEAR that kept me in the closet. Fear of showing up in the world and taking back my power.
What pushed me out of the closet? I was tired of watching the world pass me by. I was tried of being afraid instead of being excited about the unknown. I wanted to LIVE my life and not just exist. I wanted to experience all of life’s love, joy, abundance and beauty.
So I took a deep breath, let it out, pushed opened the closet door and took that first step into the light. You know, it wasn’t scary after all.
What fears keep you in your closet? Are you really to come out and experience LIFE?